i just got this e-mail from an old friend of mine, or, to call him friend may be to exaggerate our relationship a tiny bit. my mum and his mum used to know eachother, thus we were made instant friends - we didn't really have much say in the matter. but, anyway, we hang aout a bit, and we were civilised when we met eachother out on the town. last time i saw him was eight or nine years ago, soon after that, i was told he got him self a girlfriend, wanted to get married, and live happliy ever after. so he did... untill now. mum told me that he had broken up with his girlfriend and wanted to contact me, would it be alright if she gave hi my e-mail? sure it was, weren't we old friends. so today, i got an e-mail from him. but, what made me ponder, was what makes us want to contact people we haven't seen for nine years?? if we were best friends at that time it would have made more sense, but we weren't. if we lived in the same city now, it would have made more sense, but we don't, in fact we live possibly as far away from eachother as one can. so then, what's the point of contacting me again? so, i knew he had a crush on me, then. which, is still nine years ago, which made us teenagers. but this isn't as uncommon as one should think though. one have a crush on someone for a couple of years when one is a teenagers, one grow up, get a girlfriend, and live happily with her for a loong time. i think the long time part here is essential. so, one day you and the girlfriend (boyfriend, insert whatever suits you best) break up, and suddenly you have this urge to contact your highschool sweetheart, even though they might not have been 'your' sweethearts as such. why this need to go back in time? is it for a second chance, is it in order to see what became of the ones you had a crush on, if u made the right choice by not chosing them...? or is it beacuse you were so young when u liked them, that they never ever became 'real' for you. do we all carry a torch for past loveinterests, especially loveinterests that never happened?
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