*sigh* another day and night at uni... Do I do anything else besides sitting here wishing I was somewhere else?? Was really inspired and motivated when i came, and was actually contemplating a loong night here without any real regrets on that part. But, that changed suddenly when i friend of mine showed up, asking me why i was here, and if i should come out to play tonight... Suddenly academic results seemed so petty, and my head filled up with thought about life being more than good grades and a good job. I shouldn't be here, wasting my life away, I should be out there, playing with my friends and live life firsthand... But, on the other hand, I know that's only a clever and good-sounding excuse for me to go home now and go out and play. I guess the ones who knows me know that I am not the one that wastes my life away at a conputerlab at uni. So, there isn't really any excuse for me to put my uniwork on hold and do something else instead... whish it was tho...

Another thing that has occupied my mind lately is related to online chatting (sad but true). I know i might overreact here, but it really starts to annoy me. I sometimes chat in on a site from my country of origin, and somehow, most guys can't seem to understand the idea of moving away for good. They always ask me when I am coming back, and where I live when I am home. Why can't I get them to understand that I am home, home is where I am now, home will always be where ever I am, and that I won't return? Is it so foreign for people that someone may decide to leave their home country, and not for any reasons such as war, poverty, or political instability, but only for the reason that they want to live somewhere else, experience something else? I come from a developing country, and I still mean that it ranks as one of the better places in the world to live (might be my patrionism speaking here - but it was rated the best country to live in two years in a row by UN), so I didn't leave for any lack of fondness to my country. But, maybe beacuse of that, I find so many of my countrymen so narrowminded... And, when I can't tell them when I will return 'home' (can't or won't), they get angry... Is it so hard to understand that others desire other things?

And don't even talk to me about horny guys wanting to engage in netsex... *sigh* Maybe it's time to just stop chatting on the net at all..?