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'The trick to flying is to throw yourself at the ground and miss...'

Saturday, January 22, 2005

just as an afterthought, I just wanted to share this experience with u all. have been sitting here in an internetcafe when this girl enters and sits down at the computer next to me. I don't think much of it, as this is wat is done in an internetcafe. Suddenly she mutters "can u stick ur finger up ur bum and type any faster". I was a bit perplexed, but decided that I have heard wrong. Or something. Then she turns toward me (i am deeply engrossed in my writing, so I just see her out of the corner of my eye) and stares at me, while she laughs this quite disturbed little laugh. I never really knew what a disturbed little laugh would sound like, but I do now. Then she focuses on her computer again. She keeps typing for a while, muttering and sighing to herself, when she suddenly raises her right arm, and give me the finger. It should be mentioned here that all this happened quite unprovoced, while I was typing on my computer, and just noticing this somewhat odd behaviour from the corner of my eye. Life never stops being weird, does it?

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the perfect one

The perfect one

he used to ask me about. Do you believe in it? Do you believe in love? He would talk hours away on these topics, and everything I said would be truths. Although, I was never able to answer him.

We would talk of many things, talk so many nights away. I would rant and rave to him about life and living, and he would listen to my every word. He would ask of me to be comforted, and to be wanted, as he claimed to want me. I would laugh at him and call him cute and naive.

We still talk about many things, but he has left me. It is no longer my comfort he is craving, my words are no longer truths. His want is on someone else, and for me it is too late. I guess I was not

the perfect one.

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Monday, January 17, 2005

to live without

I am in the process of quitting smoking at the moment. A friend of mine, after I rather proudly had announced that I had done the unthinkable and given up my beloved cigarettes, just seemed puzzled and just asked me why? On second thought, I am not really sure of why though. Or, I am pretty sure I knew the 'why' when I decided to give up, but three weeks into a non-smoking life, and the 'why' keeps eluding me. The thought of never have a cigarette ever again, scares the living daylight out of me, and the tiniest thing can make me go off as a packet of seafood on a hot tropical day. But, although I am not quite sure of the 'why' anymore, i'll keep on not smoking. I just wished no one else would smoke either. It's not that I envy those who do smoke, or that I don't think anyone should smoke if I can't smoke. Absolutely not, if people smoke, please go ahead (I would love to), it's just that everytime I see it or smell it I can feel the want and desire and need as a physical pang to my tummy. I am not sure why I am quitting anymore. It seems rather silly...

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Wednesday, January 12, 2005

There are times in my life when everything turns a bit pearshaped. And by that I do mean everything. Sometimes I wish that life could have been a bit more fair and considerate when dealing out misfortunes. Sometimes my fairy Godmother, or whatever is supposed tp look after my wellbeing should be able to veto certain decisions from life. Like 'no, this poor thing has just lost her passport AND gained five pounds, this is NOT the time for her to realise that her bank messed up three months ago, and that she is really $600 shorter than she thought she was. Lets wait untill she has composed her self a bit shall we', and Fate should reply that 'of course, she didn't know about the passport, and it's totally fair for her to not dump missing money from bank-account on me at this time'. However, life do not seem to work this way.

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Monday, January 03, 2005

I am stuck, and I don't like it.

But, the sun is still shining, and there is always another elephant to be found.

I guess, there could have been worse places to be stuck...

And of course, my thoughts and prayers go out to those who did get stuck at worse places...

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